Day 9 (Clear Conscious)

Today was a good day, very productive.  I guess Mondays aren't too bad after all.  I worked on the business plan today and still think those things are overly difficult.  I also got some sketching done at work and getting a better understanding of how to use the wisdom I have of figure drawing.  I had a tough workout today too and man am I still sore from last week.  With all that being said there is something bigger on my mind right now.

I was reading my "Imitation of Christ" book, which I have found very insightful thus far, and found something that made me really think about my life.  One quote from the book says "If thou consider what thou art within thee, thou wilt not care what men talk of thee.  Man looketh on the countenance, but God on the heart.  Man considereth the deeds, but God weigheth the intentions".  In short, if I doing things with a clear heart, a clear conscious then I would not care what others thought and I would be at peace with myself.

That now leads to the question, do I agree with all my actions and words each day?  The answer, well, is no.  I can not say that I have a clear conscious when I look at my last 24 hours.  Don't get me wrong I am not hurting anybody, or doing some other horrible feat, but I could be better.  

So now I my journey is bigger than the 4 goals mentioned on day 1.  My ultimate goal is to be at peace with my own soul.  My goal is for each of my actions to be done with a clear conscious and honest intentions.  365 one step at a time.  I will get there, I will conquer self.

-Tali